Flare… sorry!

​It happens, life can get pretty overwhelming sometimes and I have to take a break.  Stress can cause my brain to start to shut down and my body follows suit.  The hardest thing for me is the mental fatigue that cones with relationship drama and we have had buckets of that in our house over the past week!  My husband is a talker.  I probably can’t convey how much he talks because you wont believe me.  But I need silent spaces throughout the day to give my brain a rest and my husband isn’t capable of silence.   

So there was a lot of what I will refer to as “intense fellowship” last week as well as drama with our daughter and the boy she likes - taking away communication privileges, etc.  So I was being talked at by my husband for hours a day - often quite loudly and when I wasn’t being talked at by him, my daughter was talking at me.  Too many words to process and my brain decided to stop processing all of them.  My body started to slow way down too.  I felt like my body was encased in 75lbs of play doh.  It was a horrible feeling.

But, God is faithful!  Finally my family realized there was no point in talking at me until I could get a break and rest my brain.  I have had more downtime and longer naps the last couple of days and am thankfully starting to recover from my MS flare-up.

I took my daughter to her first day of conditioning camp for volleyball this morning and am getting this quiet time while my son spends his hour of screen time on his iPad and my husband is upstairs doing laundry and packing for his next trip.

Out of the chaos if the last week a few things have happened that might not otherwise have occurred.  First, I have been able to have many talks with our daughter about trusting God.  Now we have talked about this many times but right now her reliance on God is being tested because her communication with the boy she likes and views as her best friend has been restricted to just writing letters to each other and the letters must be read by a parent before mailed.  She is struggling because she can’t talk to him or text/email him.  I told her that this is where she needs to out her full trust in the strength of the Lord.  That people, being fallible human beings, WILL disappoint us but God never will.  He knows us and loves us better than anyone ever could.  I urged her to share her heart with the Lord - to “cast all her cares” on Him and rely on Him to carry her through this trial.  So hard for a 14 year old girl to do but such an important life lesson that will give her the strength she will need as she grows and matures.

Another thing that came out of all the drama is that I was feeling like I needed a break from everything so we were going to stay home from church.  Part of the fallout from that decision was the extreme disappointment expressed by both kids.  I was getting talked at by even my son who desperately wanted to go to church (which thrilled my soul but it was also exhausting).  Sunday morning came and I was feeling a little better - but too late to go to the church we have been attending the past year and a half.  So I decided to take the kids to our old church - the one we raised our kids in and the one my husband grew up in.  And we were met with so much love!  The effort of hugging and catching up with so many people was exhausting but so joyfully so!  I had to take a huge nap after lunch but my soul has been rejuvenated!

So, once again, I am blessed.  Even in the middle of chaos and difficulty, I am exponentially blessed!😃